Some of us are confronted, amid life, with the need to look at ourselves and to change. It’s usually a question of survival. Do I want to live? Better stop this, better start that. I consider myself fortunate to have been forced down this path. So, who am I, really? Will I double down on my past mistakes, or can I change up and make some new ones? I love stories of the pain that precedes growth, redemption, and freedom that comes with it. Here are five of my favorite novels about recognizing what you are and becoming something new.
I love Lawrence Block’s work. In this book, he transcends genre and defies categorization. He paints a compelling portrait of an ex-NYC cop who is living in an SRO hotel and committing slow-motion suicide, but then he hits one of those bumps in the road—an inflection point. Block shows you a side of NYC that’s as real as it gets.
I left home at 18 with no plan or clue, and I ended up living in NYC in the early ‘70s. I made a lot of mistakes. I mean, a lot. I got away with some of them, or so I thought, and some had long-term consequences. Eventually I reached a fork in the road very similar to the one Block uses in his novel, where you look in the mirror and don’t like that guy very much.
Matthew Scudder, Block’s protagonist, decides to do something with and about himself. It ain’t easy, and it ain’t fun, but it’s your best shot. This book changed my life.
Nobody knows better than Matthew Scudder how far down a person can sink in this city. A young prostitute named Kim knew it also—and she wanted out. Maybe Kim didn't deserve the life fate had dealt her. She surely didn't deserve her death. The alcoholic ex-cop turned p.i. was supposed to protect her, but someone slashed her to ribbons on a crumbling New York City waterfront pier. Now finding Kim's killer will be Scudder's penance. But there are lethal secrets hiding in the slain hooker's past that are far dirtier than her trade. And there are many ways of dying…
Many cops retire and decide they want to write, but I think Ed Dee is just about the best of the bunch. I write crime fiction, but I usually write from the criminal’s point of view because I can’t compete with guys like Dee; he’s too good and knows too much.
In this novel, his protagonist is another one of those guys, another ex-cop who made some seriously bad choices and who paid a heavy price. Maybe he can live with it and squeak by, but then he hits one of those bumps, and he has to make some choices.
I understand the consequences. I have a few scars, but I reserve the right to be human, to make mistakes, and to learn from them, hopefully. I love this book.
Banished NYPD cop Eddie Dunne knows his daughter Kate has been kidnapped by the Russian mob for something he's done. But the cops and Feds give him no help, and now he has to find out which of his misdeeds will lead him to his daughter-or to his death. From the Coney Island beaches where the Russian Mafiosi swim to a warehouse disco where nouveau criminals cut deals to a Queens bocce club where old Italians keep bloody secrets, Eddie starts bouncing like a pinball through a game of guts, guns, and gangsters. With the help of a tough woman…
This is how good Mosley is: I couldn’t escape the feeling that I knew his protagonist the whole time I was reading this. I swear I had met the guy somewhere. I walked those same Brooklyn streets, and Mosley’s portrait of them was strong enough and real enough to make me miss the place, even though Brooklyn is overrun with lawyers and stock brokers these days.
And Mosley’s secondary characters are just as real, and if you screw up, you just might meet some of them. One last thing: when Mosley writes about race, he does it in lowercase. That way, the story sneaks under your defenses and hits you much harder than if it was all in caps. Walter Mosley is not just a writer; he’s an artist.
You are stronger than you think you are. Your primary limitations are not physical; they are in between your ears. In this novel, the inflection point the protagonist faces is not due to past mistakes or poor choices; it’s just life. It happens to all of us. In this novel, the protagonist finds his limits, and then he transcends them. The movie was pretty good, but the book is on another level.
I reread this book every once in a while, and I feel like I learn something new from it every time. The plot is very simple, but what I love the most about the novel is Dickey’s portrait of his characters and the incredible, but very human, pressure he puts them under.
“You're hooked, you feel every cut, grope up every cliff, swallow water with every spill of the canoe, sweat with every draw of the bowstring. Wholly absorbing [and] dramatic.”—Harper's Magazine
The setting is the Georgia wilderness, where the states most remote white-water river awaits. In the thundering froth of that river, in its echoing stone canyons, four men on a canoe trip discover a freedom and exhilaration beyond compare. And then, in a moment of horror, the adventure turns into a struggle for survival as one man becomes a human hunter who is offered his own harrowing deliverance.
Redemption is not just about stopping this or quitting that. Whether your problems are chemical or behavioral, those simple changes are a necessary beginning, but they are rarely enough to get the monkey’s teeth out of your neck.
In this novel, Block’s protagonist from 8 Million Ways to Die wrestles with the post-addiction problem of who you are, really, after that thing that has been propping you up is taken away. Redemption isn’t about what happens when you stop digging the hole. It’s about what happens when you climb out of the hole and start becoming.
Detective Matt Scudder is on the trail of a killer - but solving the case might be his undoing...
Matt Scudder and Jack Ellery were at school together but never exactly friends. Twenty years later, when Scudder was a detective and Jack was standing on the other side of the one-way glass in a police line-up, it was clear their lives had taken very different paths.
What they shared, however, was a battle with alcohol. Now Jack is on the ninth step of the AA program and it's time to make amends to the people he's wronged over the years…
Saul Fowler is a professional thief who is living in an RV up on the coast of Maine, hiding from his addictions. His past comes back to haunt him in the form of his estranged stepfather, Reverend McClendon. “Someone killed my daughter,” says the rev. “Find out who did it, Saul. I know you can help me.” This would not be Saul’s problem, except the girl might be his half-sister.
Once back in NYC, a place he never thought he’d see again, Saul digs deep into the dead girl’s life and soon finds himself contending with gangs, pimps, prostitutes, the NYPD, and, perhaps, the fifth fundamental universal force. Finding the truth will either change his life or end it.
ALBA - Hidden Secrets is a tale of blood, broken dreams, and buried secrets.
When I was in high school, several young teenage boys died in car accidents, with tragic outcomes for all involved, and I wanted to honour their memory without specifically identifying them.
This novel is about secrets and loss, and how lives could be very different if fate hadn’t intervened. Many people hold secrets close to their hearts, and agonise about whether to let others in to help share their load.
Sixteen-year-old Rebecca is consumed by grief after the sudden, tragic death of her boyfriend, Alastair. Her pain is exacerbated by the fact that their relationship was a secret, a love story hidden from the world. Now, as she mourns in silence, she feels trapped, torn between the anguish of losing him and the guilt of revealing their bond.
Calum, Alastair's brother, remains unaware of their relationship. As Rebecca grows closer to Calum, their friendship takes an unexpected turn when they stumble upon a mysterious suitcase in an abandoned ice house in the remote northern Scottish village of Cromarty. They also…
